Just Look at What You've Done!

That whole thing was stupid. I can't just walk away like that. You want to be able to trust me and I'm starting to realize that this is part of why you don't. I hide things from you. I love you and I shouldn't be keeping anything from you. What do I have to do though to convince you? It's not like you'll read this. I can't go run off with someone else when you're trying to just do whats right by your conscious. I would feel horrible now. Anna... Look at what you've made me. I've turned into this conforming, compliant, bendable, man that you have way too much control of. This is only going to get worse, but it makes me feel that much closer to you and that much more able to justify my current position. I feel that since I can tell myself no and I can control myself because of my want for you, it shows me how much I actually care about you and how much I've truly changed. Yet it still sounds like BS. I need to keep working at it... I need some help though. I'm changing for the better.