A Day Made Bearable

          I was happy to have you there when the shit hit the fan. That entire trip was a time bomb waiting to go off and... Well, sadly enough it did, and you kind of got caught in it, but trust me you were far from the point of detonation. There was no way that I was going to be able to make everyone there happy because they were simply just to close. The other two were obnoxious and immature the entire time. One was constantly teasing and flirting with my friend and the other was a complete bitch when I spoke merely a few words to her.

          I saw that you were hurting and since you weren't trying to make my day pitiful I only felt bad knowing it was because of me. You did everything right and now I believe that I'm just going to cut the others off; set them free. It'll be painful for them but for some reason I believe I won't quite mind as much as I should...

I Must Have Tricked Myself... but I'm Glad

          I only realized it now. I only felt it today in the courtyard. Her happiness was like a drug. I had longed so much to see her happy for months now and it finally happened. She made it work and she couldn't be better. I can hear it in the way she talks and see it in her behavior of late. I'm proud of her. She bore the pain and set her mind on the one thing she wanted, then when I was starting to think she wouldn't she won him back. I should be more like her. I just don't have the drive. I lack the care or the want to do anything more than sulk and wallow in self pity. She didn't and it changed her world. I can tell, and I couldn't be more genuinely happy for her, and for myself for that matter.